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Sunday, August 27, 2006
7 random things about me :
I'm on Earth
I'm human
I'm male
I'm a product of chance
I'm what u're not
I'm trying my best to overcome social anxiety disorder
I'm alive?
7 Favourite music at the moment:
Join me - H.I.M
Killing Loneliness - H.I.M
Atlantic - Keane
The Frog Prince - Keane
Sound of Melodies - Leeland
Take All of Me - Hillsong
Mee Siam, Mai Hum - By Mr Lee lol
7 Things i Like the most:
My iPod
My Computer
To be able to make someone happy , because i believe a good way of measuring success in Life is to see how many lives u're able to brighten
How things work on Earth
To love and be loved
Memories
Family and Friends who guide me through turbulent times
7 Lucky People to do This:
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Posted by Derrick.
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yu xi-de ! 2:14 AM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
I've most probably said this a couple of times this week. Man are from mars and woman are from venus. Always picking on the other gender, always not being able to understand the other gender.
Often I am misunderstood, Its hard but lets face it alright? life. I've been through a lot(fine, some), emotional crisis and all. I've had some dark clouds, and yet its raining now.
Alone for awhile, I've been searching through the dark. For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart. To weave by picking up the traces that remains. Melodies of life, love's lost refrain.
Im told to do a quiz.
7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
You probably dont know this, But i have a thing for cats. I love them.
I actually play the piano, heh yuxi playing the lol keys. you mean banging.
I've always love deeply and passionately, Although I might get hurt. Thats the only way to live life completely.
Im often misunderstood.
Im not rikki the singer
I think i am ville valo
Im not gay. (No really im not=P)
7 FAVOURITE MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:
Oh too much to write, Killing loneliness. H.I.M
Everybody's changing. Keane
Things will go my way. The Calling
Heartache every moment. H.I.M
Julia
Sleepless city treno
4th Avenue Cafe. L'arc En Ciel~
7 THINGS I LIKE THE MOST:
I like the breeze thats blowing past me at night.
I like piggy sweets back then.
I like my wallet because there's pictures.
I like building my happiness on other people sorrows, Im a despicable person.
I like being hated cos it gives me a great deal of satisfaction of how im able to overcome Feelings
I like my dick because i love children and dick gives me children along with hole.
I like kicking your nuts.
7 THINGS I SAY MOST:
Sorry.
Please forgive me.
Rationally
Man are from mars, woman are from venus(Technically this is true)
Lies
Bothering words, Irritating words
If I could, then I would.
7 LUCKY PEOPLE TO DO THIS:
Derrick
My pet rock(my rock's a human u fag)
My pet germ(Who said germ is'nt a person's name)
My ka kia Josephine.
Skyline
My mom( i wished she'll put me under the hate list)
Geraldine(technically you've done, so haha)
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I am misunderstood, it was'nt much of an big issue. But well haha, Im here. as always..
yu xi-de ! 11:37 PM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Was about to type something here tonight. But figured that i could'nt really connect my mind after i eaten. So forget it.
Alright fine, i've got something to blog about.
As i finished my food, I thought of something that would be intresting. TO PRANK. LOL. HEEEE
HEEEEEEEEEEEE HEEEEEE HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
*DRING DRING DRING DRING DRING DRING*
*Pick up sound*
"Hello?" She mumbled
"Hello, may i speak to man, Yes may i speak to man. Yes may i speak .."Asked Man
*Totally blur about what is happening voice* "Oh, Im sorry er you got the wro...EH WA LAO WEI" She exclaimed
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHA"
"You SAID IM SORRY ER YOU GOT THE.. LOL HAHAHAHAHAHAH "
*Duuu* * Duuuu* *Duuuu* (She hanged up on me =D)
HAhahahahaha, Yeah and that she was GERALDINE . I cant believe my acting skills reached the CLIMAX , Yeah DAMNED Im Good alright. I FOOOOOOOOOOOLED UUUUUUUUUUUUUUU HEEE HEEE HEEE.
C'mon, It was just a joke. To those who looked at this and dont believe it (As told from her). Im sorry if you dont believe it, but its true =( HEEE HEEE HEE
yu xi-de ! 7:34 PM
Monday, August 21, 2006
Sorry,call me a Airhole or a bastard or anything.
Just unblock me.
EH U DID? LOL OKAY.
IM freaking demoralized by the results i have, im not trying to blame the teachers or anything. What im trying to say is that, its because i did'nt pay attention in class or study. Which led to my downfall of terrible results. I've done so badly in maths for like 2 years already. I cannot keep doing this, i have teachers and friends who tells me that im slacking way too much. Mathematics, now feels like a chore to me. Its like, i dont understand anything at all. Like, Why am i doing this? Why am i torturing myself, thats the kind of feeling im getting whenever i do mathematics. I have to study, i have to start now, This is too bad. So if anyone would help me with maths, i'll gladly appreciate it. Next, its my chemistry. LORD I"LL CONFESS THAT I"VE CHEATED IN MY CHEMISTRY TEST, SO PLEASE STOP FAILING ME. Thats right, if anyone would help me, I'll gladly appreciate it. I've learnt that life is one big game, where the winners are all getting paid. I should stop dragging my feets behind. I can't live with my folks all the time. Buck up u fucking asshole.
Today, I went to school(Wow). I ended school(Yes I ended school , the teachers bowed down to me and the school workers wiped my shoes, and the principal cleaned my ass) I then went to mac donalds and got scratched by that bitch(Yes u jian ting). She is dangerous. I then received a message and went to westmall, I thought something happened. Okay, i know i dont drive, but i have bicycle LOL. Next time, Yeah i've told u, when i came there, I mean i really wanna fetch u. Yeah then we played tai di at Mac donalds, the uncle who chased us all is damn cute cos he did'nt kicked my nuts although i was trying to pick a fight with him. Then we played on the bus, i saw the sitting arrangement, and i thought haha lame. We then went to hazel's apartment. WTF, the pool got people man, genesis saw it too, SOMEONE FLOAT UP THE POOL. And hazel's room is damn cute, can see tarzen outside, everyone's mood was so deep and sorrowful, so i tried to cheer them up but failed nevertheless. U know what scares you the most is'nt when the ability u gained is bad. But what scares u most, is when that ability is TAKEN AWAY FROM YOU. I missed laughing. Hysterically. And then we all went home, OH YES and this cat . Although its black, well its still a cat. I love cats(Sorry i do). As i went to cuddle her(Lets just take it as its a female), GERALDINE PULLED ME FROM BEHIND AND SHOUTING "LETS GO YUXI, AHHHHHH" Yeah. I could'nt cuddle it, =*(. Home sweet home.
I did'nt wanted to talk about this, But eventually I still have to. You. The world doesent revolves around you only, you can't say and do things just cos you like it . You can't just briefly say So? I dont care, just to brush off a matter that involves you in it. We're affected by you. Yes i am, deeply. Frankly speaking, I would'nt want my personal life to be controlled or rather interferred by an asscrack like you, so please if you haven't had anything better to do. Go face the wall and shout "FUCK YOU BITCH' . Yeah, that'll make you happier.
And As for the phone? I've kinda roughly get an idea of what i wanna get, BE WAITING DUDE, just endure another few months and you'll get your new phone, like how you yearn for it.
Oh please be happy, Its sad to see me fine here, and you there feeling all lousy and down. Let me help you, It makes me feel very useless not being to do anything for you. Well when you wanna let it out, I'll just let you know that im always here and that you can always count on me :) Smile like how you used to.
yu xi-de ! 8:14 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
You jerk it out
Oh yes, So many things to talk about. So much , that I had to get off my bed and blog at an hour of 1.48am.. Fishy, i smell the taste of curry LOL . At such an hour aint it so? ^_^. This blog entry was meant to be a lot, But i dont have that much of a energy to do so. So i'll most probably rant a little, or describe a little.
Many of you most probably watched CLICK(Okay damned, when i talked about this part i was shitted. I totally forggoten that i had this entry and forggoten to press the publish button) the movie. Yes the Sorrowful show in disguise of comedy. When i first learned that i was watching with derrick on Friday, I was so excited. Excited till the extent that i NEARLY brought a remote control to the cinema and be an idiot(Which i already am one Wahaha), but derrick then told me before that his friends and him did such a thing before. A group of them, lets just say 7. All brought remote controls to the cinema, and started pointing and Foreigners or anyone they see, FAST FORWARD was said LOL. As i was about to leave the school. A group of sexes joined me, and we began our excursion. As we arrived, we went to food repug. That place is awesome, i just love it. The table's colour and all the structure, Heck theres even a pretty view. (HERES THE KINKISH PART) What really fascinates me, is that a person would be moving around selling drinks, Yes u heard me, Selling drinks on the spot. Not those kind of coffeshop uncle who asked u, you go shouting kopi c ji bui.. Yeah the food was great, And my brother did'nt believe me, GO CHECK IT OUT ASSHOLE. And then when derrick arrived i did'nt noticed, until when i checked my phone and saw 5 missed calls and two hate messages. "ZZZ im going home" "-_- What the fuck is this". I then noticed that i was on TOTALLY SILENT MODE(No vibrations or so), K idiots touching my phone. As i called him, He was there. I was glad to see him all in one piece, Hey He is sweating. As we sat down, and him seeing all my friends being there. Being the only guy with "problems". He could'nt help it but send me a "Good job asshole" Message, Yes its my fault im sorry. I then went to make him relax by saying my friends are a bunch of total idiots(Yes they are, Tested and confirmed by derrick). And we went to walk to cineleisure, those dudes were a total cluthz in jaywalking N00BS. I was the first to cross the road, and soon began felling asleep on the railing(Due to extreme waiting). We then went to watch Click(I dont wanna describe what happened when we were walking there, its too embarassing).
Click is a comedy, its also a sad show. I loved the lame barney part. For those of you who had watched it. Have u ever tried to put this movie into your life? Many times, as i was quarreling. Be it friends or family, i would always not wanna listen it, and really wanna "fastforward" it. The show makes me wanna live my life to the fullest for the next 6 hours(Yes derrick, i won u by 2).If somehow i managed to get an controller like that, and i fast forwarded my life to the time when i get a good job. Thats like 10 20 years? I wont know what really happened in it. But the show is abit zzz. As the man was dying, he still went to point middle finger(WTF, and i thought he wanted to pat that man and give him some last words =.=) But what really affected me. Was what morty said, after he woke up(Although rationally it happened). "Hope you do it right THIS time" This sentence acts as a thing to remind us that life, Only happens once. And, not everything would be given a second chance. Sometimes, In life you might get hurt, or you might get happiness. But what really is life? Life is'nt how you live it,
Life is about living it.
Oh if your wondering if im still affected by the movie. Yes, I did. Right now im gonna try to live my life better...
Recently i've been going out a lot, I spent too much money. Thats not nice . Just today i went to a concert, Its fun to see some people wearing different types of clothes. While i will always wear my uniform. Band was cool, and i tried to act spastic but the group of friends were too little. Otherwise i'll have be real nuts. You know , some retarded people were shouting and cheering after each song is played. Oops, i should'nt call them retarded . Honestly, we should pity them. They are the kind of people who had deprived childhood and really wanna be a kid again, Lets be nice. And i wanted to be a real fucktard. I wanted to scream in between the song, so loud that it breaks the whole song. And everyone would start looking at me, And i'll be in tears. And i'll go to that right pillar corner, And WAIL LOUDLY AND CRY . Just like the emo kids Wahahaha. Derrick once told me about a extreme emotional case would be when a person looks at a tissue paper, and she CAN ACTUALLY come out with reasons to tell you why she's crying. Yeah btw, when i entered the room, i wanted to shout "Daddy ! Mommy where are u!" And then "heh, what a nightmare" LOL. And it ended, with damnation feelings.
As i went back. I then meeted mathias at the market. He broke up, thats damned. I wont say much, but i'll just slightly talk about it. Person A is trying to save a relationship, while person B doesent give a damn. Totally sicked up. Oh and its on a honest basis. Like i said , i wont say much. So i'll just let u know something. IN life, You are bound to get hurt and all. What u must take note that, you can't force a person to love you, BUT u can let yourself be loved.
Love deeply and passionately, You might get hurt, but thats the only way to live life completely. You broke that chain, you smashed that toy, you put the chain in the peanut soup. Whats the point? Dont cry because its over, Smile because it happened. Your life is like a grass. People like wendy, are those tiny little pretty grass are those that attracts you and wants you to pick it up. And those Tiny ordinary grasses are those PEOPLE WHO ARE AROUND U. Think about it.
When people dont argue over the things that are bitching them. When people dont really mind although u've said fucked up stuff. Its always in the appearance, It means they are tolerating you. It means they still wants to be friends with you and hope that you'll stop your bullsh!t. Lets just be crude, STFU .
Drowziness has gotten all over me, as i blurred myself frantically finding the publish post i see a red X. On the top right hand corner. Is that ? THE PATH TO FREEDOM? No, wait i saw an orange. My favourite colour, oh there it is.
yu xi-de ! 1:49 AM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Hi. This blog is alive. It has 4 buttons and err.. I dont know, its just not dead. Well i have lots of things to update, but im not gonna them today. I mean, not all of them.
Many things happened recently, and i must say. I am glad with some of them. My emotions are more stablelized , and im proud of it LOl(No im not nuts). The rainbow after the storm, Yeah. Thats how you describe it.
And im not gonna update about the unhappy things, but here's what i gotta say. If your saying, Being Emotional = being a girl. here's what derrick said, "STFU, or i'll get all my friends and stuff cocks into your mouth" K rant all you want.
I love the way some songs are written, like. BABY JOIN ME IN DEATH . WAhahahaha.
And, I found my inspiration for piano again. Its kinda dumb, because well im grade 5 and its like im still noob at it. I lacked discipline.
And i have a feeling that for this year, i will not do well in my exams. Dude, my POA. Its like, i dont know whats debit and credit.
I was actually about to stop just here, but i found some motivation to blog again. -.-.
Yeah, recently a friend of mine. He's father past away due to stroke. Its kinda sad, but at the same time it makes me wanna live my life to the fullest. Why? Stroke , is a illness caused by many reasons. Im gonna try to be thin LOL THATS LAME MAN, and. It makes me wonders, sometimes people work so darn hard , eventually they are the one's getting kicked in the nuts. Whereas the people who are bullshitting , kick the people in the nuts. I wanna live my life better, i wanna find a work.
Speaking of work, Yeah. Recently im so darn short on cash , that i can't even have a proper $2 meal. And speaking of money. Even at my age, Money affects relationship. If u talk to dudes like melvin, and your talking about money. Whoa he'll go like dead serious, for example you guys are argueing over something. Lets just give an example, okay cats are cuter than dogs(Okay rationally this is true LOL yes it is). And melvin will go, dogs are definitely cuter than cats, WANNA BET HOW MUCH. I BET WITH U $100 dollar man. And if your gambling with him, And he loses, he wont pay u straight away if he can pay u in another way. But if you lose to him, it'll be like "pay me NOW" LOL. Kinkish aint it so.
Sometimes, it makes me wonder. What are we really here for? I know its to learn to be like God. But our roles? How we live it? Sometimes I feel that WE as humans are so preoccupied with our feelings that we forget whats around us sometimes. Life's is truely unpredictable.
Its been awhile since my father went to overseas. I feel that im a bit lifeless, i lacked something in life. Something real important. Work. I dont feel physical stress, i dont feel the load on my back. Physically. I need it. GIVE ME STRESS. And today i was kinda damned, when i tried to call geraldine on my phone, i called infront of mr chin and i did'nt notice it. And i had to beg him for 30 minutes to return it to me. What a bitch, I had to rush home for my midnight sonata.
And u know, MSN nicks. I've seen some retarded nicks, and theres one which goes like this "What is the lightest thing on Earth" And when i saw him online, i clicked him and spammed him with the word "ME" LOL" But the most retarded one is mine
"- r i k k i - > > > CHONG CHI CHOW CHOW KONG KING TIAO AR!".
Yes, Self explainary text? You'll be noobed if u dont know it .
U said u hate the word noobcake MAN.
Its the sweetest and cuttest name i can ever think of Wahahaha . Its either, Choice A)Noob cake
Or choice B) COW.
PICK IT YOUR CHOICE Wahahaha
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IM gonna brieftly talk about this song Moonlight sonata. Its a quiet song, its dynamics. its concurssions. Its melody, Its mood, its tempo. Totally suitable for a crying scene. Its absolutely wonderful, it warmths your heart. A never ending song, It can just play on and on. Like the melody of a life. So whoever wants to hear it. Here's the full video of someone playing it, Not the original author though
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mb-BZ4F74fw&mode=related&search=.
Oh Yeah, I've been wondering. What i wanna be when i grow up, perhaps i can be a pianist, no not a penis =P LOL
yu xi-de ! 7:09 PM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Recently i have been staying up late for no reason . It seems to me, that a second josephine is formed LOL.
Just now i was making dumplings man. As you readers know(Rationally i know , i have no readers LOL) I am a cluthz at art or folding. My mom told me how to make dumplings, my first attempt ended with strings of vulgarities from my mouth. And the second attempt, i had to tolerate and so on. Eventually , it just gets better and better. The thing about dumplings is that it has sections. And normally the last section is usually my favourite part, Eating. Wahahaha, Getting to taste the rubbish i made is terrific.
As i was using msn, i began irritating almost everyone on my contact list. I used my mike, and pissed them off. As i was scolding derrick, i noticed something. Im darn vulgar, i've got to change that, Im supposed to be civil.
Awaits Justification.
Silenced by the fear of dying your heart once again.
Good bye
yu xi-de ! 12:40 PM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
As i lie in my bed, the ticking clock makes me think of you. I turned in circles confusion, which is nothing new. Flashbacks of pretty memories as i go emo and cry, left behind. A suitcase of memories was what i had left afterall, time after time.
Sometimes u picture me. Im walking far ahead, You might be calling me but i cant hear what you had said. But u said slow, i then fall behind. Eventually, time after time, i hope to catch up.
I cant do anything at all now, but if your ever lost and you can look, you will find me.
If you fall, i'll catch you and i'll be waiting,Time after time.
Time after time, your picture starts to fade away and darkness has turned to grey. As i looked through the window wondering if your still okay. Time after time, I'll be waiting, time after time.
Apparently for no reason, you seemed to be mad at me MUI. I wondered what i had done, but i wanna know why? Why is it that you refused to answer my damned calls and eventually went away without saying anything. When your back, and if u ever read this(Rationally i know u dont) . call me.
yu xi-de ! 1:20 AM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Recently there's a lot of things to talk about. I 've noticed that my life is improving a lot, and I LOVE it.
Frankly speaking, Im quite aware of my surroundings, I might not been looking at you but im aware of you(Yes, this is my first sentence, the one i wanted u to guess, but you'll never guess it). Some people in my class are mofos in a way, their pretendence pisses me off. Who the fuck do you think you are, pardon my words but i feel that there's a need. And you, i've been having cold war with you for so long, from march i think. It ain't big deal to me, the sight of you pisses me off. And dear you, You're getting on my nerves, i know we're great friends for quite some time. But sometimes, i just feel that you went overboard. I can tolerate, sure i have quite a patience i must say. But sometimes, the things that you spout might not concern me only. You do understand what i mean right? I mean, if its for good intentions i dont mind. But obviously its not.
Its been 2 days since my dad went for china. I must say, its extremely tiring without him. Bloody hell, yes kinda. I've been doing the chores a lot. I mean, i do have siblings. Its as though im the maid for them. Take last night for example i was studying at 11pm, and i became tired and soon wanted to rest for awhile. I told my brother to wake me up at 12am so that we can hang the laundry together. When i woke up, it was 12.30. I went into my bro's room and he was still using the computer happily, obviously he forggotten about it. I scolded some vulgarities, i doubt he heard it. And went to hang the laundries myself. It was tiring i tell you, especially at night i was about to die. When i finished it was 1.15, I still had to study for my chinese test the following day which was today. So then i dozed off with the paper on my hand. When i woke up in the morning, i tell u ah. Damn tired, like got ghost sit on me like that then a bit siao lor LOl.
There's so much to do recently, i dont really have much time , and my handphone is gone now. All forms of communication cut off. Which is damned.I dont have much to say but i'll end with a apology
Im sorry, I know i keep on telling you i updating i updating which ends up when u log off i still haven't update. Im sorry i can feel that your disappointed me for in a way fail to fufil task. I told u to update and so you did immediately, you told me to. And i was slacking. Im sorry, theres just too much things to do, =\. Well i'll update faster next time yeah, sorry geraldine.
yu xi-de ! 6:19 PM
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